On occasion, I can 'spin a yarn'.
(Actually, I really do know how to spin yarn...haven't done it in years, but I do have that skill. #RandomFacts)
But the yarn I am spinnin' today is the story of how it came to be that six days into my June series, and after a pretty big Amazon order- I completely abandoned my idea, made six new pieces from scratch and went in a brand new direction.
I had it all planned out, my summer artin' I mean. I had planned on FINALLY playing around with these alcohol ink things- that was going to be my June series. I had won a gift card and went on a big #TreatYoSelf shopping spree courtesy of the husband's Amazon Prime account. The packages started coming at the end of May and the last one actually arrived today. Alcohol inks, Yupo paper, blenders...heck, even materials for what I was planning for my July series, too!
I was on top of my game. I felt really organized. I totally adulted. #GrownWomanStuff
But then on June 5th, I saw the news that accessory designer Kate Spade had died- she committed suicide. And it just really stuck with me.
The thing is...I'm not really a designer handbag kinda girl. Growing up we never had money, certainly not for fancy handbags and shoes. Heck, when Keds were popular I couldn't afford them. I remember my stepsister gave me her old pair, which I couldn't fit- I took off the labels and glued it to the back of my plain white shoes from Rose's.
I probably didn't have my first 'designer' handbag until I was teaching at Indiantown Middle School. I won teacher of the year and one of my gifts was a Coach wristlet, picked out my my super stylish and fancy friend Siddhi. I had never had a real Coach...well, anything. After that I did go through a period where I would buy the smallest Coach wristlet for myself to mark milestones...but that was it as far as me buying fancy things for myself. My cousin Krista gave me her old Tory Burch shoes (barely worn!) because she got another pair since those didn't fit her quite right. My friends all chipped in and bought me a vintage Badgley Mischka bag for my birthday one year, it is super sparkly and I only bring it out 'for special' (like granny's old fancy towel set)....and I John's sister gave me one of their mom's vintage Fendi bags, one of my most beloved pieces, another piece I only bring out on special occasions. Those are my 'designer' pieces. Everything else is a thrift or clearance find.
And the thing is- I never owned a Kate Spade bag. But the fact that someone so talented and notable took their own life...it just made me think about how things aren't always as they seem. Folks can be hiding so much hurt, even if they seem strong, or seem like that have their life together. We are fragile- all of us, designer or no-name brand...we only have one life to wear.
And I just started thinking,
...just a gal trying to get this art out of my soul to share with the world on a DAILY basis...no big deal...check out my ramblings!-JLG